IT'S BID DAYYYY!

Three years ago I accepted a sorority bid to Delta Zeta. I celebrated with my new sisters and made lots of precious memories. Today however I do not feel the same joy. Today I sit away from my sisters, outcasted, as everyone else gets to know the newest members of my beloved sorority.
I've struggled with school my entire life; getting in trouble for talking out of turn, for not following along in the book like I was supposed to, and for being blunt and outspoken to other students. I never understood why I couldn't finish one homework assignment at a time, or why my mind ran a mile a minute in multiple different directions. I didn't understand why I could study for hours and get a worse grade then my friends who didn't study at all. None of it mades sense until a few months ago. Two weeks before finals last semester I got diagnosed with Attention Deficit Hyper Disorder. In that moment I knew why I couldn't concentrate on what the teacher was saying.  I found out the talking out of turn is an impulse problem that I had no control over. Yet, most of all I learned I am not any less intelligent for getting worse grades then my friends. My lack of good grades does not reflect my knowledge, it reflects how my brain doesn't work like the "average" human beings.
So today I sit outcasted from the ones I love because of the effects of this disorder. I sit alone because my grades did not meet Delta Zeta's standards for over three semesters. I, like many before me, am being push aside for something I cannot control. I cannot sit here and say it's not my fault I got bad grades because after all it was my name on the paper but how do you explain something you did know was happening. How am I supposed to explain to my friends, family, and people who know me that I'm not in my sorority because my GPA is too low, when I tried so hard to do well. How do I make the case that I'm not a lazy, uncaring student, yet I have such bad grades. I accept it and stand tall.
 My entire life society has looked down upon me. I'm not average height. I have a mental illness. I refuse to follow the social norms. Yes, I have am all of these factors, but it will not stop me from doing what I love. I will not let anything discourage me from being the Bri Twigg I am and that of which people have grown to love. I will not throw myself a pity party because a few people said I'm not academically good enough to be a Delta Zeta anymore. I will take their criticism and show them that my ADHD will not control my grades forever. In my heart I will always be a Delta Zeta. No one  can never away from me what is not theirs to take, for I know in the heart of Delta Zeta I will always belong.